Words for the Soul

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My latest piece,,, written for my best friend's birthday. And the wench didn't even bother to pretend to cry!!! 'We were in public' was the excuse, so what??? I cried in a public bathroom at New Year's! Anyway,,, hope you enjoyed the dinner,, even if Jayme got dizzy.

5/29/99

            Little did I realize  the day we met
            That you would become
            One of the most important persons in my life,
            The friend closest to my heart.
            Little did I realize  the day we met
            That two people could be so close,
            That we could be such a part of each other.
            Little did I realize  the day we met
            That we would do all the things we have,
            That hockey and football,
            Roadtrips, Frogs, and Lions,
            Jell-o, apple pie, and so much more,
            Would make us laugh until we cried.
            Little did I realize the day we met
            That one day you would be
            The one whose arms are always open,
            When I need a hug for comfort
            The one whose shoulder is always there,
            When I just can't hold back the tears
            The one who always makes me laugh,
            When I feel like the world's let me down
            The one who knows my thoughts,
            Before I ever speak them
            The one who understands what's in my heart,
            And doesn't judge me for it
            The one who would teach me,
            That friendship is the greatest gift
            The one who has faith in me,
            When I loose faith in myself
            The one who pushes me to go for what I want,
            No matter how scared of it I am
            The one who holds my hand,
            When I chose to defy Fate
            The one who reminds me with only a smile,
            That at least we have each other,
            When I let a man break my heart
            The one who can talk me into doing anything,
            And laugh with me as we remember it later
            The one who would teach me
            To love and appreciate life, and how precious it is
            Little did I realize the day we met
            That one day everything that would make me smile
            Would somehow be because of you
            There was so much I did not realize
            Until I met you
            But now that I have,
            I know that I am blessed to have you

This one's my favourite,,, somehow it brings me peace to read it. Who knew that I actually had this in me? *l*

3/10/99

                                Sometimes I Wonder

            Sometimes I wonder if you've ever stopped,
            And thought about those whose lives you've touched
            Without ever having met them, without ever knowing who they were.
            Late at nite when the moon falls across your bed,
            Have you ever thought that maybe somewhere
            There is someone who thinks about you more than she should.
            Someone who doesn't understand her need to meet you
            Someone who doesn't understand why you won't leave her thoughts.
            You are there when I open my eyes in the morning
            And you are there at nite as I fall asleep,
            A shadow in the dark, such a part of my life.
            I haven't felt this way since I was 16
            And I question it, because it makes so little sense
            Reason and logic don't explain any of it:
            I know nothing about you,
            And you know nothing of me.
            Yet the mere mention of your name makes my breath catch,
            Memories of you,,, make me smile.
            And sometimes I wonder why this is happening at all
            Why with someone so far away? Someone I'll likely never meet?
            And if I were to, would it change anything? Would these feelings go away?
            Would you be less than I hoped? Less than I wished?
            Or would you be all I've ever dreamt of? Will I ever know?
            Will you dismiss this as unimportant?
            Will you dismiss me as unimportant? Because we've never met?
            You might forget this in a day, forget me in a week
            But know that I won't forget you,,,
            You will be here with me, as you have been for so long.
            You are in my thoughts when you shouldn't be,
            In my dreams when I need someone to comfort me
            Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever see your smile again
            And will that smile ever be directed at me?
            Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever have the chance
            To look into your eyes,,,, and see myself in them.
            Or will this be another wish ungranted,
            Another hope vanished,
            Another prayer unanswered.
            I sit and I wonder if I'll follow my heart
            Or if I'll listen to reason,,, never letting you know that somewhere
            There is someone who thinks about you more than she should
            Sometimes I wonder,
            What would you do if you knew?
 

I don't think this piece needs must explanation: it's about surviving the loss of a friendship.

9/98

                    To Loose A Friend

            Dow do you say goodbye to a friend?
            A piece of your heart, a part of yourself
            How do you keep the laughter and the tears
            Without loosing yourself to the pain?
            To know someone you hold so dear
            Needs you no longer
            To know they have someone else at their side
            Where you once belonged
            To know you've been replaced,,,
            How do you keep a smile on your face
            While your heart is breaking?
            How do you let go of the memories
            All that you had, when you had each other
            When you see them tommorrow, what will you say?
            Or will you be able to speak at all
            How can you be strangers, after it all?
            How can you let them go,,,
            And keep yourself whole.
 

This piece is about first love, and blind love -- and how we see what we want, and not what really is.

11/93

                        Faded Memory

            I remember clearly
            The nite that we first kissed
            A midnite-blue sky
            Sparkling with a thousand stars
            A silvery moon, peeking behind the old barn
            We talked by the fire
            You held me close, and kissed me
            Two hearts beating as one
            Your eyes whispered 'forever'
            And I silently agreed
            But when the nite fadded away
            And the stars disappeared
            I was left with nothing more
            Than a faded memory
 

The following are poems that were written by friends,,, some have asked me to put their work up here, some I just decided they were good enough to share with the world :)

Here's one by Chelle,,, one of the 'not so sad' ones :)

5/31/98

            You make me feel like I am whole.
            You cheer me up when I am sad.
            You make me feel beautiful when I look in the mirror and want to cry.
            You’ve been in my dreams hundreds of times.
            You make be believe
                    In love,
                        In friendship,
                            In soul mates,
                                In me,
                                    That there is someone out there for everyone.
            When I am alone, you are in the shadows to make me feel safe.
            I can feel your touch,
                Hear your kind words of comfort.
            What I see in your eyes when you look at me takes my breath away.
            You fill a seemingly endless void in my heart.
            Something I never thought would happen,
            You have opened doors I long ago locked,
                Broken down walls that have long been in place.
            You believe in me and love me for who I am.
            And teach me to do the same.
            You have given me that hope that I can 1 day be happy.
            You have done all this and more,
            But the one thing you haven’t done,
            Is introduce yourself, so I will know when I meet you
            Who you are.
 

Here's another one by Chelle,, this one is um,,, a tad bit sad. What can I say, she's got problems*l* Of course, who can blame her,,, spending nites in a lonely hotel room in Bumblehump, SK.. Oh hey, isn't there a Sarah McLachlan song about that? Anyway,,, read on.

1/8/99

            What does it take to get you through the nite?
            When things are rough, and you are alone,
            When the nites are long and lonely.
            When all you really want is someone…
                To talk to,
                    To be with,
                        To hold you close and tell you everything will be alright.
            The nites you spend with tears in your eyes,
            Don't compare to the tears in your heart.
            Why, you ask yourself.
                What is so wrong with me?
            Does anyone want me?
                Will they ever?
            You doubt yourself, and everything you used to believe in.
            If you can make it through the nite,
                Will tomorrow be any better?
            Late nite chats with someone who might understand.
                Curling up with the lions, or a blanket,
            Watching a movie that makes you smile more from the memories than the movie.
            Remembering the good times.
                Trying to forget the bad.
            Hoping that if you don't say it aloud, it might not have happened.
            Things you wish you could forget, or at least not think about.
            But the memories won't go away.
            How do you get through the nite?
            How do you face the darkness by yourself?
            You want nothing more than to have someone…anyone hold you in their arms.
            To make the demons fade into a blissful black void, finally silent.
            What gets you through the nite,
                When you wonder if you want to at all?
            What gets you through the nite?
 

This one was written by an old friend, Matthew Mogle (just to give credit where it's due! *smile*), whom I shall never forget... It's a poem that means a lot to me, and manages to make me smile whenever I read it. Through the years, it's brought me comfort when I needed it,,, matt, wherever you are, I miss you...

2/14/95

            The night draws nearer and nearer
            And I find myself all alone
            Tonight it quickly becomes clear
            That my thoughts bestow a moan
            This night of stars and you and I
            But the distance drawn between us
            Breaks not the limit but your eyes
            As they slur desire and beauty, Thus
            To only my dreams cannot see
            Come precious queen, come to me
            Let me make you into desire
            Together but away, still one in our fire
            Holding together in the near mornign sun
            The words exchanged through you and I
            Make peace and passion swell, love one
            So please exhange your feelings as well
            And I will only wait until....
 

Please don't take any of the poems I've posted and pass them on as your own,,, give credit where it's due if you want to use them